baby steps

life seems so hard
but am i making it harder than it has to be?
people seem so complicated
or am i too simple to understand?
everything seems to have its own rhythm and grace
and i am too childish to grasp it

finding passion

i dont have a passion.
i wish i did though.
i love my field and the things i learn, the people i met.
but i envy their drive, their hunger to learn, to pursue SOMETHING
i wake up in the morning just glad to be alive, able to walk to school
thrilled to have a boyfriend i love and would give anything to spend the rest of my life with

i want to have that hobby, expertise, talent
all i have is the need to be alone
and to lose myself in my head

what do to with my free time?
what to do with my life?
how do i live in a world full of other people?